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Ⅰ. 서론 ·························································································· 1
1. 연구의 필요성 및 목적 ······························································ 1
2. 연구문제 ·················································································· 4
Ⅱ. 이론적 배경 ··············································································· 5
1. 중간아이와 한국의 가족문화 ······················································ 5
1) 형제관계와 출생순위 ········································································· 5
2) 중간아이와 한국의 가족문화 ······························································ 7
2. 한국문화 안에서의 음악치료사의 자기탐색 ··································· 9
3. 중간아이로 자란 음악치료사의 전문성 발달 ································· 10
Ⅲ. 연구 방법 ·················································································· 14
1. 자문화기술지(auto-ethnography) ·············································· 14
2. 연구 참여자 ············································································· 15
1) 중간아이 음악치료사, 그리고 자문화기술자로서의 나 ···························· 15
2) 타 중간아이 음악치료사 인터뷰 ·························································· 16
3. 윤리적 고려 ············································································· 17
4. 자료 수집 ················································································ 17
5. 연구 절차 ················································································ 17
Ⅳ. 연구 결과 ·················································································· 22
1. 중간아이로서 나 ······································································· 22
1) 이쪽도 저쪽도 아닌 그 사이: 최시원의 딜레마······································· 22
2) ‘내가 유일한 아들이었다면···’: 남아선호사상 ········································ 24
3) ‘말 잘 듣는 딸이었어’: 중간아이의 역할 ·············································· 25
4) 겨울나무가 꾸는 꿈: 엄마와의 동일시 ················································· 29
2. 음악치료사로서 나 ········································································· 32
1) 가면(persona)을 쓴 나 1: 착한 치료사가 되기 위한 노력 ···················· 32
2) 가면(persona)을 쓴 나 2: 대인관계로의 확장 ····································· 34
3) 진실 혹은 거짓: 중간아이의 가면을 벗다 ············································· 35
4) 나를 노래하다: 가족의 역할인식과 엄마와의 분리·································· 40
5) 용기를 가질 수 있는 용기: 중간아이와의 동행 ····································· 45
6) 위기를 기회로: 음악치료사로서 성장 ··················································· 47
Ⅴ. 결론 및 제언 ·············································································· 51
참고 문헌 ························································································ 55
부록 ································································································ 61